Picturing the Sad

Going through ways never crossed before
Looking for the lonely
No one can ever find me

Looking for understanding from God
And never for someone to know me

It has hurt me, you can see
There’s no understanding
It’s the missing piece to me

All of them say to understand me
Why don’t they give me what I need ?

Never wanted to get into addiction
But I need something to grab when I’m down
I let the melody get in to make me forget for a while this sad life
And this feeling, so blue, that the ocean and the skies aren’t blue enough to be compared to it

Through the ways lightened by the storm that it’s every now and then in my life
I run for the lonely, to be rescued by the no one
Picturing the sad all the time I seek for the truth I’ll never find
And I’m never going to find the answer to mysteries of this complicated life
Only complicated by me, it’s my own prejudice

Smoke Is Fading Away

Lighthouse is showing the way
Wind is oscillating all the way
Everything so calm, so serious
So laid-back and forgotten of contradictions

The sight never changed
Everything so peaceful
Oh, how I envy it
I wanted to forget my contradictions

The music that rocks until the deepest sleep
I feel so empty, with nothing to give
Everybody tell me that life is in my hand so why I’m letting it go?

Once he whispered in my ear
Life is yours my dear
All the ways lead to one place
Run your way without fear
Don’t put your life in a case
That would be mistrust on history
It’s all so clear, and forget the rain
The sunny days will come to lighten your way

The guardian of the temple never let me in
I never found the way anyway, the smoke doesn’t give a chance to see clearly
When smoke is fading way, all life is so clear as water on the river

Someday, somehow

Another day looking to nothing
An empty space waiting to be filled
Mysterious strength that makes me walk when I’m wasted

In another day likes others before
Darkness brought by the winds
A different day from now on

Days going to waste
Tears carrying the fear of losing you

Take the white rose
Make it into a dove
Giving you peace forever
Don’t leave me now I need you

If I lose you I’ll lose my heart
Can’t lose my adviser, my favourite man
You dad

Don’t let it win you
Be strong as you are
Someday somehow
I’ll pay you
With love and proud…

Let me be me

Pain from my inner depths is becoming superficial
Today the inside wound that hurts
The feeling that doesn’t heal

Tomorrow something new
Another tear to shed

Leaving all my purposes
What’s the matter to hate
When you’re going to lose someone you love

Why so much hate, so much sadness
Why are we so human

Looking for that answer
But I don’t like the search

Again hitting the head against the wall
Cursing about everybody
Leaving life behind
For a living death

No one ever knows
I don’t doubt about existence
I only doubt why it had to happen to me

I always questioned the life but I never really looked for an answer
Maybe I just don’t know what to ask

I say what is unspeakable
So no one ever understands me
Lone again I walk through the thorns

Let me live
Let me die
Let me feel
Let me be cold
Let me be me…

Let My Wings Born Again

Let my wings born again
So I won’t regret for what wasn’t done yet
And all the lights will come to my way

Let me show you the world beyond this one
Let me feel again what I haven’t felt

So good, so sweet
An angel
A melody
Again

The breath of life filling my lungs
And the spirit flowing through my veins again

And will leave you
And will seek you
For all now and then

Stop living for something you’ll never get
Leave goodbyes for tomorrow
Live it now, it will pass by
And all your sorrows will be left behind

You’ve got your soul
You can feel it every day
You made me your life
The only way to feel alright

Don’t cut my wings
So I can fly with you
The firebird will light our way in the dark
And with nothing to say let the silence fulfill our night

Sands of Time

These memories that now are pieces of splinted stone
Undone by the gelid cold of passing time
Pictures are burnt
So my eyes can’t see them

The cold that cuts the breath
Leaving slowly the breath of life suffocate
While I drown without struggling
In the days without hope

I look for the sun that for a long time don’t shine to me
In the darkness I hit my head against the wall
Trying in vain to get the significant for this life that if it has a meaning is getting more occult

The sands of the time drained
But the pain stood in here
I' m sharing the space of soul with the uncertainness

Searching for something I can’t see but I can feel
The endless search for myself
And for the remedy that heals the pain of soul

I get a shelter in word
Which always appear
But can’t always express the feeling

The night dew is the place where you can find the answers
Written on the stars
But can’t decipher

The darkness where I stood, without light to move on
Is where I’m going to start to be somewhere else in another day

Last goodbye to you

The breath of life fades away quickly
Now is your time but shouldn’t be it
Where are we going now
Heaven seems so far here in earth
Maybe you’re going to a better place near of your beloved ones

You never were lucky here
You always had a hard life
It was filled with some tears I guess

He’ll never hurt you again
The gates of heaven won’t let him hurt you
Now be in peace and cry no more
Let love go inside your heart and be happy forever

You gave life to two daughters, the sun of your eyes
To love and to be proud of
They gave you some trouble but in the end of the day
Everything was fine
The day lasted some years but worth it

In the morning the days were not easy
to you and your brothers and sisters
In the afternoon things got better but not everything was ok
In evening, no words can describe the pain
At night you left us and you left tears
Tears shed for your family in this so dead day

What’s going to happen next, why good people pay with their lives
When the devil laughs and never dies

We all miss you, maybe one day we’re all going to be together again
To cheer and laugh
When we all pass the test of life
This life that goes away so soon without mercy
Goodbye …


To my dear aunt, wherever she is now
31/03/2009

Black rose

The black rose full of thorns got me
The white snow came and covered me
Something new came out

Filling the white with the grey, like we were painting the fog so no one can see us
Looking for something never invented yet
Looking for the tomorrow that never happened
I don’t want you but I need you

I’m coming undone again
The petals of the rose are falling
So as my eager existence
Shattering my dreams again
He came to pick me

The uncertain came to say
The obscured life came to shine
The tears streamed for life
And I’ll be here again

The free bird flies wherever he wants
I wish I was like him
Free to fly
Free to be
Free to feel

The music died away
No more words to say
The sun came out again and began to shine