Unholy words

Time passed, your ashes were taken by the wind
The book is missing the eyes of a reader
The words written in your actions
Should not be followed
You're my book, with bad words written
All over you

You're the history of countless disillusions
(So well camouflaged, they were my dreams)
Those words worked like a mirror
It was me being used to fuel them to life

I wrote you with blood
From hurt, wounded, felt feelings
You are back to remember my failures

I wish I could get into your eyes
And wake up into the outside
To get out from myself
(Are there worlds besides my own?)

Open your eyes to the dawn,
You are dead
Your words have ordinary meanings
Just like them all

You're ordinary like people
Yet so different from me
Those poisoned values made you a thought of who to be

Such bright values are followed
Because of what people want but not because of what they feel

Unholy words
Like you and me
Shall be written on everybody's heads
But never in paper...

Estranged

You claim to love me
But you don't know me
Nobody but myself does

You want to have me
I want to leave me
Keep me yours

You're being adventurous
The ways you go can be tortuous
The field is unknown

The devil lives here
Possesses my actions
The good leaves here
But sometimes it's left behind

Today I saw the morning
Coming up to my windows
The rising sun felt fine
I was alive

Today I saw the evening
The moon killing the sun
The shadows taking over
Some darkness went out of me
Killing the mood around

I'll close my eyes tomorrow
And I won't see anything but you
Maybe the true me will be guided by you...

Vicious Circle

I will always end up in this vicious circle
I'm meant to destroy myself
To hurt myself
I'll be always struggling with my mind

Happiness arrived and I'm consuming it
Until it ends
I'm absorbing it
Poisoning it with my sorrows

Tomorrow won't be different
Past will be always repeated
That's my sad faith
A faith I made from bad experiences

Two people living in this body
This meaningless body that will become dust someday
Two people fighthing
Two people I don't have idea who they are

I'm tired
I'm full of energy
I'm tired of dying
I'm wanting to live

I'm here
With you my love
Which one of me do you love?

Poor you
Sad me
I' not free from myself

Why am I like this?
One time happy, another time sad
One time loving,another time hating
I'm so sure of nothing

If I can't live with myself
How will you?

You Will Rise Again

You were consumed by an atrocious wicked fire
Something unexplainable and with a devastating force
I saw your ashes and you life
All faded away

I ran through many lands and many oceans
But I didn’t find what I was looking for
Something wanted to grab me and didn’t let me go further
Where the reason lives

It was so clear and pure that I couldn’t see it
My eyes only know darkness
I’ll grab your ashes and build you again

As the phoenix from the flames, you will rise again

In the city of angels, you’ll achieve forgiveness and start again
Tomorrow will happen but remember it’s not going to be today
Look at the sunset and see that the dying light of the sun
The unachievable perfection, mother of all good things

As the phoenix from the flames, you will rise again

As I have promised tomorrow or today will happen
You’ll reborn again from the flames that took your life away
What killed you, now gives you life

How strange can this be?
The fire gave live now
You’ll rise again and fly far away

Never let your breath go away
The fire running through your veins damp
Don’t let this wicked world consume you
Fly far away and higher just like this fantastic firebird

You will rise again