Let me be me

Pain from my inner depths is becoming superficial
Today the inside wound that hurts
The feeling that doesn’t heal

Tomorrow something new
Another tear to shed

Leaving all my purposes
What’s the matter to hate
When you’re going to lose someone you love

Why so much hate, so much sadness
Why are we so human

Looking for that answer
But I don’t like the search

Again hitting the head against the wall
Cursing about everybody
Leaving life behind
For a living death

No one ever knows
I don’t doubt about existence
I only doubt why it had to happen to me

I always questioned the life but I never really looked for an answer
Maybe I just don’t know what to ask

I say what is unspeakable
So no one ever understands me
Lone again I walk through the thorns

Let me live
Let me die
Let me feel
Let me be cold
Let me be me…

Let My Wings Born Again

Let my wings born again
So I won’t regret for what wasn’t done yet
And all the lights will come to my way

Let me show you the world beyond this one
Let me feel again what I haven’t felt

So good, so sweet
An angel
A melody
Again

The breath of life filling my lungs
And the spirit flowing through my veins again

And will leave you
And will seek you
For all now and then

Stop living for something you’ll never get
Leave goodbyes for tomorrow
Live it now, it will pass by
And all your sorrows will be left behind

You’ve got your soul
You can feel it every day
You made me your life
The only way to feel alright

Don’t cut my wings
So I can fly with you
The firebird will light our way in the dark
And with nothing to say let the silence fulfill our night

Sands of Time

These memories that now are pieces of splinted stone
Undone by the gelid cold of passing time
Pictures are burnt
So my eyes can’t see them

The cold that cuts the breath
Leaving slowly the breath of life suffocate
While I drown without struggling
In the days without hope

I look for the sun that for a long time don’t shine to me
In the darkness I hit my head against the wall
Trying in vain to get the significant for this life that if it has a meaning is getting more occult

The sands of the time drained
But the pain stood in here
I' m sharing the space of soul with the uncertainness

Searching for something I can’t see but I can feel
The endless search for myself
And for the remedy that heals the pain of soul

I get a shelter in word
Which always appear
But can’t always express the feeling

The night dew is the place where you can find the answers
Written on the stars
But can’t decipher

The darkness where I stood, without light to move on
Is where I’m going to start to be somewhere else in another day

Last goodbye to you

The breath of life fades away quickly
Now is your time but shouldn’t be it
Where are we going now
Heaven seems so far here in earth
Maybe you’re going to a better place near of your beloved ones

You never were lucky here
You always had a hard life
It was filled with some tears I guess

He’ll never hurt you again
The gates of heaven won’t let him hurt you
Now be in peace and cry no more
Let love go inside your heart and be happy forever

You gave life to two daughters, the sun of your eyes
To love and to be proud of
They gave you some trouble but in the end of the day
Everything was fine
The day lasted some years but worth it

In the morning the days were not easy
to you and your brothers and sisters
In the afternoon things got better but not everything was ok
In evening, no words can describe the pain
At night you left us and you left tears
Tears shed for your family in this so dead day

What’s going to happen next, why good people pay with their lives
When the devil laughs and never dies

We all miss you, maybe one day we’re all going to be together again
To cheer and laugh
When we all pass the test of life
This life that goes away so soon without mercy
Goodbye …


To my dear aunt, wherever she is now
31/03/2009

Black rose

The black rose full of thorns got me
The white snow came and covered me
Something new came out

Filling the white with the grey, like we were painting the fog so no one can see us
Looking for something never invented yet
Looking for the tomorrow that never happened
I don’t want you but I need you

I’m coming undone again
The petals of the rose are falling
So as my eager existence
Shattering my dreams again
He came to pick me

The uncertain came to say
The obscured life came to shine
The tears streamed for life
And I’ll be here again

The free bird flies wherever he wants
I wish I was like him
Free to fly
Free to be
Free to feel

The music died away
No more words to say
The sun came out again and began to shine

Living for tomorrow

I’ll become dust someday
The tears will dry
And all the love I never gave
Is going to die

The sun goes and the sky turns black
I wonder why
The sun is gone for so long from my life

Living for tomorrow
I look dead already today
Body starving for love
Head hitting against the wall
looking for comprehension while it
releases frustration
Looking for a whole new me

Telling lies to myself
Looking for the perfect lie
That makes me think I’m on heaven
while I’m on hell

Keep spinning the wheel of fortune
It never stops
Living for tomorrow, after this dead day…

Life filled with tears...

In my downbeat existence
The designs from God weren’t my best wishes
Here I am waiting for another thrust in my chest
One of many others

They tell me to be cold and cry no more
But how can I, if you can’t love me no more
Fount of life is weakening and your thirst for it is getting bigger
They give me love but heart doesn’t accept it
I feel alone in a thousand ways, a thousand times, a thousand feelings

Walking alone
Trusting on silence, hoping something better to happen
It’s all collapsing, a world shocking against the other one
It’s something you can't see but you feel

All the tears I shed were priceless
Nobody cares anymore
I’m all the time crying but tears don’t come
But today in gesture of kindness to myself
I let a few tears go away
This pain, this rain, this cold, this sad, sad, sadness

One life to cry about
How can someone want to be me
If I don’t like to be on my skin

This is verity
Words never said but felt before
One relief that will become pain one day
A vicious circle without I have an addiction
A life with sad goodbyes and sorrows
A simple life…