Life filled with tears...

In my downbeat existence
The designs from God weren’t my best wishes
Here I am waiting for another thrust in my chest
One of many others

They tell me to be cold and cry no more
But how can I, if you can’t love me no more
Fount of life is weakening and your thirst for it is getting bigger
They give me love but heart doesn’t accept it
I feel alone in a thousand ways, a thousand times, a thousand feelings

Walking alone
Trusting on silence, hoping something better to happen
It’s all collapsing, a world shocking against the other one
It’s something you can't see but you feel

All the tears I shed were priceless
Nobody cares anymore
I’m all the time crying but tears don’t come
But today in gesture of kindness to myself
I let a few tears go away
This pain, this rain, this cold, this sad, sad, sadness

One life to cry about
How can someone want to be me
If I don’t like to be on my skin

This is verity
Words never said but felt before
One relief that will become pain one day
A vicious circle without I have an addiction
A life with sad goodbyes and sorrows
A simple life…