Is this the end?

Is this the end?
And the destiny of this mass of water and rocks was being discussed
On a table of unpolished pine wood
Spoiled by the tear drops of heaven and the passing time

The neighborhood star came to look through the window
Dazing two birds to death and burning the seeds before they’re grown
Dryness was installed
 Maybe the delicate sound of water running will refresh and feed our thirst…

We come and we go
Nobody waits, not even time
Nothing is for sure
Not even one’s existence

He said coldly:
 I shall not be here any longer, I’m running to the centre of the universe
Catching wild stars and drinking dark holes
Freedom is the last thing to last in the end of the world

He penetrated my mind as he kept whispering 

His rarefied thoughts shone
He kept discoursing enthusiastically to the walls
But I couldn’t forgive his slashing attack
My heart raced in a volcanic pace

This is the last time to make an action out of a thought
I ran away, as far as I could
And lay down in the floor, looking at nothing
It’s all we know, anyway

He was there, catching stars with his eyes
Waiting to grab them in his bare hands
I watched passionately his moves
It soothed my mind

I want to be sedated
To live in an illusion
Different from this one

He faded away
He was closer than ever to the end of it all
Still I could feel his presence
But I kept walking alone…

Blinded with beauty

He was sipping
Dark hues of blood
Gelid as ice
And her livid hand raised for a last wave

This is the world we live in
Grey and sad
Red and bloody
Most part of the times

There are new shades though
When black raises a few octaves
Almost reaching the white
Then light shall transform it into a brand new feeling

Some preach against the new colours
They want to see in black and white
What a silliness!
They were caught by the comfortable state of ignorance

He kept rambling
Trying to reach the ephemeral rainbow
So many shades
A symphony of colours and strong feelings

He wanted to free himself from ill feelings
As he climbed up the hill
The acute sounds flew all over, like lost butterflies
Why would they be in such place?

Is there a right way
when there is so much to see?
He tried to fade away the colours
the fake ways would perish
But they refused to fade

He climbed up the hill
He saw her hand waving
The right way was found
Life has been restored

The two could see with clear lens
as if they were in the outer space
They were blinded with beauty and complexness
And they fade away…

Where are you dark angel?

Where are you dark angel?
You’ve promised me a new sky
Where the horizon is reachable and the skies are white
And I thought that light would finally come

Forsaken and lost
The sun laughed at me
I envied its glow and looked down
Earth was trying to swallow me to the ground

The power within me has made me understand that we’re strength ourselves
Once we get to know what we’re made off, we can do everything
Though I just can’t see myself in a mirror
Who am I?

I shall not let them bury me alive
Because I have to dig my own grave, before the final day comes
Each day is a new step
And when I’m gone my prints will be on the floor for others to know
The way I have followed

I don’t regret the craziest things I’ve done
When my spirit was free
And days seemed warmer and brighter
Consciousness has brought the dawn
The after night time for reflection

I wish to get lost again
In a delirious dream
So pleasant and natural
As life should be…

And after all I’m standing here
I can’t see you, I can’t smell you…
It’s cold and dark
The mountain is hard to climb

It’s time to wake up
To rise and stop falling for the same mistakes
Over and over again
How much will I have to wait?

The evening wind is cooling my thoughts

The evening wind is cooling down my heart
My accelerated heart
You’ve made me rush and I lost my way
Where am I, dreamer?
Soon I’ll be gone

The evening wind cooling my thoughts
Shaking me and twisting my thoughts
The thought of you leaves me beaten up
And my guitar cries for you

Soon I’ll be gone
And this is just a passage
A way that I have to make through
After the sorrow, I’ll be gone

 I look at you with my eyes closed
As if you were made of peace and ephemeral material
As if you were the reason of my existence
As if I were dead without you

And though I can’t touch you
I feel you inside me
Crying in my heart
Leaving your thirst on me

And I fall from the abysm
I don’t have nothing to lose
You’re my angel and my devil
What are you?

The wind soothes my existence
The flowers are gazing at the stars
I am looking at your mysterious eyes
Two suns brightening my face

What are you looking for seeker?

They like so much to call it a life
But for me it’s a bunch of lies
They tell you to fight
But you only can see yourself lying on the floor
Beaten up and forgotten

A new day will come tomorrow they also say
Maybe today will never end
Tomorrow is just a metaphor
But what am I supposed to know about that?

The urge of living is so big
Yet I can’t let myself go
Yet I can’t beat my other self
Yet I can’t come true

I’m not a well of morality
On the contrary
Though I’m not unconscious of my actions

What would you say if I show my weaknesses?
What would you say if I told you I fall every day?
In my mind remains the savage spirit that makes beings
In my mind I made myself

What are we but images we created?
Are we what we really think we are?
So many questions but apparently we’ve got an answer

How fool we are for thinking that we can know ourselves better
Looking inside with your eyes is a reflection
You ought to go outside and get other eyes
These eyes aren’t lying mirrors seeking for harmony

It’s useless to run away because there is no escape
But standing still looking for an answer isn’t the right path to follow
What to do?



In my downbeat existence I’ve learned that no one has the answer
Something good or bad depends on your eyes
First one must find its eyes, the genuine lenses of reality
Than is time to go and seek
What is this but a hide and seek game?

The sincere cold drops of merciless truth

There are days you feel tired
There are days you feel like crying
There are days you want to drown
To lose your breath and let your body float
Maybe the heavy sorrows you carry will go away...

Sometimes it looks like the end of the world
But there is land beyond the horizon
Sometimes it looks like we're going to be swallowed by the earth
But that's the way we are reborn

The river seems to be drying
But a storm will come
And clean the dirt
And set free the pure waters
The sincere cold drops of merciless truth

So cold that cut the breath to some
Others remain still
Maybe the cold makes them tough

While I'm wasted, I keep fighting
And now I'm here, I keep on waiting
Will that make the difference?

Why am I feeling so tired of all?
I'm getting tired of the world
I need air, I need to explode
This seems never  to end

I released some out
I had to be alone
I still have to be alone

All I want is to be alone
All the voices oughtn't to talk
If I drown, at least it should be on me
I shall be carried by the sincere cold drops of merciless truth...

Ramblings on me

One day I stopped  in time
I stopped to see my eyes seeing
I stopped because I needed to run away

I've been rushing my thoughts
I've been far away from myself
Because life is urgent and leaves no room to be

Existence is nothing when actions take place and leave oneself behind
The skies are nothing when stars are light years away
My eyes are blind because I can't ignore the beauty of a thought

Oh, how much I long to meet myself again!
Oh, the beauty of not being perfect
The shapes of the mistakes are harder to understand
That's why we keep making mistakes, to understand their shapes

Because we are eternally condemned to live in the ignorance
We won't know how perfect it is not being perfect
The soothing grace of being a small dot in a paiting

The ramblings of someone trying to achieve inner comprehension
Are hard to figure out
But there is nothing more simple than building them
We were made to dream and to make ramblings
We were made to be nothing at all...

The Shadows Took The Night Away

The shadows took the night away
When the sun revealed the corpses heavily lying on the floor
Some drops of mercy fell from the sky,
The moon gently wept them
They bathed the spirit of the most unforgivable creature

A simple word would have made the difference
Such whim is forbidden and mortal
I’m not innocent, but I don’t feel guilty either
I only feel that feeling that no one can describe

Deep down I was lost in my labyrinthian way of being
I’ve lost my way when you whispered in my ear
Those beautiful words changed my path
Now we are lying in the grass dead
Waiting for better days to live

I consumed them until I couldn’t take more
That crazy appetite makes me crave for more endlessly
I’ll be always dying for more and more

There was a place to call home
Now I don’t know where I belong
Values have lost their force
They’re just words repeated over and over again
Once that happens, you’re out of consciousness

I wanted to try
I wanted to stop the flames from lightning my heart
I wanted to forget
But you always came back

The thought of you always comes to me
You’re covering my eyes, my dreams, my expectations
You live inside me and won’t let me go
I won’t ever set you free
How can I live with this?

In this paradoxical whirl, I don’t know where I fit
I’m still waiting to understand what I’m made of
Maybe someday I can say that I’ve made the right choice
Or maybe I’ll be walking in the purgatory hand in hand with you

The blue melody resounded through the place
Wakening the reality for the dawn
The livid bodies faded away
So had this thought…

Dying Eternally Forever

They were deep and dark though bright
The skies I searched for so long
I prefer the darkness to the daylight
Because when light hits me, the shade is not my own
And that is just wrong

I tend to move inwards with thought and reflection
If I can't look, I cannot see the universe
Sometimes I do it, longing for connection
I look through the gap in the ceiling
And what I see is not me, it's the reverse

Those gelid skies were the most rational answer
But what is rational on me?
That's a good matter
To drive me insane, to twist me and turn me round
Countless times and times...

What does it matter if you fail
Life is life, and it's the way it is
So scarce and precious
So raw and organic
So what it really is

Why not taste the smell of a rose
When there is time
Tomorrow can never come
The rose will lose it's scent and so will you
Dying eternally forever