Why?

Why do you make my heart beat faster
When you know you’re not worth it?
Why do you escape to my head
And invade my thoughts?

Why do you cut me with that knife
that tenderly trespasses my feelings
so pleasurably, that pain turns into pleasure?

Why do I despise you and love you so much at the same time?
Why do I scorn you and look with disgust at you
and still I want to caress your face, telling you all is going to be fine.
Why did you get into my life, anyway?

I just can’t admit…
It just can’t be…
It’s impossible…
It’s all utopia!

Tell me why,
Yes, you looking at me
why do you do this to me?
It’s driving me to insanity.

Don’t promise me a single thing
Don’t even come closer
I fear you
Stop doing this to me…

New memories appear every day
The speed of thought is like the speed of Light
As soon as you reflect, the moment is gone
It belongs to the past

My memories are back
And so are you
But only a shade is to be seen
Every time I look I see something new

Like a flash, you come and go
Leaving me in the same place
When you’re back time hasn’t passed
Everything we do is to blame

A whim not yet satisfied
Maybe one day who knows
Fantasies grew as we planned
So did our lust

Now I laugh
Yesterday I cried
Something inside me moves
I don’t know what it is neither do I really want to know

Once you walked away
And will do it once again
No more explanations, no more frustrations
We belong to ourselves not to somebody else
Not to each other, not to Heaven or Hell

So, let’s do it once for all
Then walk away without feelings
Without thoughts and dreams that might attach us
But a moment never to forget!

In a distant quiet place, where reason can’t reach
Where only instincts and sensations can prevail
Where emotions can’t see what we’re doing
Where the hands are so close, but so far away at the same time

Before I cry,
This circle will end
Heart, go away!
Conscience, don’t interfere!
And Reason, give me one to pretend I know what I do…

Grey

The city sleeps
and the dizzy lights are exhausted
almost faint and eager to shut down for that day

He walked, in silence, because words had hurt him so much
Sometimes silence was unbearable,
his head was filled with voices, his own
that wouldn’t give him rest

He had no direction; he just wanted to walk
The colourless streets gained life under his feet
His steady pace, encouraged them to grow green
As if Nature was gaining, beating the grey and firm cement

Every time he looked back, he recognized his home
as his steps turned everything so green and familiar
The past was chasing him, and all he wanted was to run away

Where are you going lone walker, what do you seek?
I seek another world out of this colourless one
Look behind, don’t you recognize it?
Yes but I’d rather my eyes were blind
Such perfection confuses my senses

Nowhere was his place
A black hole was not fit enough to be accepted by him
He had the whole world inside him

You, that run away from yourself
Will soon realise there is no such world
The world is inside you and all you see is an elusive
mere representation of your thoughts and beliefs
A sensational outer space that feels real

So, he kept running way from himself…